Monday, March 24, 2008

first anniversary

it wasnt love at first sight.... it wasnt infatuation either... it was intricate and complex... it intrigued me ..... i was attracted yet had no idea why... it wasnt beautiful at first as they say... yet he kept me engrossed and confused until i unraveled every little web he had woven ... the first touch was magical... it transported me to a whole new world... i felt like alice in wonderland... i looked around .. everything amazed me .. yet i could make very little of what i saw... the dynamics of this new world confused me... i came out of the hole to the comfort of my old world... but the sensation of that first magical touch remained with me... i once again entered the hole .. and with my whole being outstretched.. i let myself fall... i landed with a thud on the hard ground.. ouchh .. i was hurt.. but i was determined .. i looked around and took this path which was like a roller coaster.. every time i tried to tread carefully and walk straight, the path played tricks on me and catapulted me to a totally different place... i was tired and lost and longed to return to the certainty of my old world... i returned ... never to return again... but ever since i returned i was rearing to go.. i wanted to fight this monster.... strange since this had started with the sweetest feeling ... the most tender touch .. well this time i went all out ... i looked into the hole... it was dark and seemed abysmal... i let myself fall... fall as freely as i could.. i refused to acknowledge the presence of the ground under ... i landed in his arms (cheesy, i know) .. he showed me around... the roller coaster ride became a walk along the beach where we looked beyond the horizon seeking the difference (perhaps the similarity) between the sea and its mirror image ... the sky ... i was in love.. its been an year and i have seen it in everything around me ... the hole has simply ceased to exist and both my worlds have become one ...
its been an year since i read The Shadow Lines and its been an year since I fell in love with Amitav Ghosh ..

3 comments:

Ajit Narra said...

i fell in love ..
i fell out ..
how does it matter..
its for the better..

Heidi said...

i wrote a few lines
made them rhyme
stacked matter above better
reason below find

Lubna Ahmed said...

Hey! I read Amitav Ghosh's The Calcutta Chromosome and was left disappointed. But not disappointed enough to try another of his works. Bought The Shadow Lines the other day, heard it much praised. Plan to read it next.
Have you read The Calcutta Chromosome?